迷失方向的日子。。。

人真的好矛盾哦。。。求学时期总想着快些毕业。。。可毕业后又开始怀念起求学生涯。毕业至今，小妹我已在家快两个月了。。。仍然一副无所事事，每天修炼天蚕神功的样子。。。如今正如所愿成了名名符其实的蚕宝宝。

好想快点找到工作哦。。。 可是现在的日子并不是我在选工，而是工在选我。。。真凄惨。。。大学毕业生居然连个售货小姐都当不成。。。。

一个人养了一群虫只为了钓一只大鱼，可是鱼儿总是在虫儿的身边徘徊没一个愿意上钩。虫儿越养越多，鱼儿越游越远。。。。
人开始怀疑，究竟养虫是为了鱼？亦或是抓鱼为了虫？

以往简单单纯的想法。。。如今已变了样。
觉得自己不去挑剔就一定能成功。。。可是忘了。。。自己并非一个人。。。周围关心自己的人还有很多。。。所以做什么都必须为他人着想。。。

星期四 天气阴 心情懒散

如此无聊又无趣的生活就这样又过了一天。。。。
一早下起了毛毛细雨，让人变得懒懒的。。。

昨晚。。。吃了好吃的红豆冰和我爱吃的黑瓜子，有点点的满足。

做好准备???

老天爷又再一次的向我的人生开了一个玩笑...
年纪轻轻的我是否做好准备迈入人生的另一个阶段? 我能够胜任如此艰难的任务吗?
坦白说,我不确定....
翻来覆去想了许久,终于做了决定...可我的决定是对或错...又有谁能告诉我呢?
心里忐忑不安.... 却不知该向谁述说....

p/s:我好想放纵自己独自一个人出游透透气哦。。。。。

我的幸运天使飞走了....

充满期待的一天, 但心情却因为一通电话而沉入谷底...
满心期待能尽快开工,解除蝉丝的困扰....谁知....命运弄人...

好烦恼哦....
究竟我该如何?是否须抛开一切顾虑....

时光飞逝...

时光如流水....
一年就这过去了.回想过去的一年里,我做对了什么,又做错了什么?
一年内能让一个人的人生充满变换...
如今的我,踏入了人生的另一个里程碑....该是什么样的心情??

开课了。。。

哇，时间好快。 开课一个星期了!!
真糟糕，懒惰的我连台湾之旅的行程都还没写完呢。。。。。下回再继续吧。。
开课了，好忙噢。。。而且因为太久没动书本了，有点懒惰噢。。。
救命啊!
没办法，只好再加把劲了。

台湾游第二天

感谢导游的体谅，让我们九点才出发。。。可以睡多=点。。。 :P

冷冷的一天，天不作美，雨一直下。走马看花般观了蒋介石纪念馆(中正纪念堂)， 忠烈祠，故宫博物馆等地方。。。觉得有点无聊，也许是因为小妹我对历史知识有限吧!不能怪噢!

过后便从台北往台中朝向我向往已久的小人国出发，到达后有点失望噢。。。并没什么特别之处嘛，而且冷冷清清的。。。不过仍叫人玩的愉快!!!

接着是逢甲大学前的逢甲夜市，没我想象中好玩噢。 也许是因为我不喜欢逛街吧!因为那儿多数是卖衣服及吃的东西。。。
连逛了两个夜市，好累噢。。。

i wan to ZZ zzz.....

台湾游第一天

9/05/05，中午从柔佛出发往新加坡机场，遇上班机延误。。。拖拖拉拉。。。

1。25am (10/05/05) 终于抵达台北酒店。。。班机的延误，导致我们迟了。。。
一到台北中正机场，天空便下起了倾盆大雨。。。只觉得好累好冷噢。。。
听导游说这个时候正是北雨季节，所以在台北的这几天将会细雨绵绵。

这次的导游是位风趣的叔叔，大约六十多岁，姓楚，大夥儿都叫他楚留香。

好累噢。。。要睡了。。ZZzzz....
得养足精神应付接下来的旅程。

mis-understanding....

mm... y is so difficult when communicate between each others? even though the person very close n understand u well but when jus communicate without seeing each others stil will have misunderstand or arguement?

yesterday was a sadness day for me...
due to this coming mother's day... wish to give my mum a surprise before i go to taiwan... but have some mis-communicating wit my dear....
we end up our communication in an arguement situation... my heart was so pain n sad.... my tears is drop non-stop...
this is the first time we have arguement... first time i'm feel dissappointed on my communication skills...
but luckily he is an understandable person.... at the end.. he change his plan and jus becos he wanted me happy.... :P

i'm so happy tat i have someone so understandable beside me...
thanks my dear dear ^_^

星期三 天气晴 心情 愉快

一早张开双眼， 迎接我的是那美丽的早晨。令人心情愉快。
今天可有的忙了。要做个乖乖女，帮妈妈做家务，还要收拾东西。。。
因为明天就要去新加坡短住，下个拜一就会直接飞往我向往已久的美丽岛国，台湾! 好棒噢!真的好期待噢! 虽然会有将近三个星期的时间无法待在我可爱的家，可没办法因为那儿真的太吸引我了。。。希望这次的旅行将留下美丽的回忆。。。

昨晚又在sotalk溜哒了。因为小妹我真的太无聊。可是最近的sotalk也有点闷闷的噢!也许是因为大家刚考完试去玩乐了吧!真讨厌，去玩也不带我去。
跟magicbullet说起上个拜五在lot8交报告时看到他，一想到我猛叮着他瞧，而他却一副傻傻的表情时，我就好想大笑噢!没想到第一次见到他是那么的好笑!太可爱了!
他知道是我后，还在sotalk赞了我。。。哇，好开心噢。。。嘻嘻，因为好久都没人称赞了。
是人被赞都会开心的啦。

心情愉快。。。。。烦恼都远离我，不开心的事最好也离我远远的，别靠近我。。。。。

sick..

after rushing for this days... at the end i b a sick baby again...
mm... last fri rush to kl for move in my things to my new house...
wah the room is quite big n tidy.. but a little bit beh tahan the weather there so hot ...
but everything is ok gua..cos the housemates is my classmates....hehee...

saturday morning back from kl.. then evening rush to singapore... wah so geng le...
like a superwomen wor...
tat time start feel unwell.. sore throat, fuzzy, headache n fever.... all the bad things com sekali gus.. wan make me die...
but no choice stil hav to go lo cozs already promise mum wil accompany her ma.. then hav to b a good gal...

finally today can hav rest... but feel unwell o...
i hate sick.. it make me weak n feel tire... somemore need to eat medicine....
i dun wan eat medicine la....
it not nice....!!!

无聊的日子

人真矛盾啊!当忙碌时总思念着假期，但当假期来临时又觉得无聊。。。
不知不觉我已经离开usage四天了，好想念那儿噢。。。因为那儿有我想见的人。。。
日子一天一天的过去，我也将回到吉隆坡了，还真舍不得噢。。。
不知为何，我依然无法适应大城市的生活，总觉得缺少了一个叫做人情味的东西。。。
是因为大家都伪装起来了，还是根本就没那种心呢?

实习生涯倒数的第二天

时间飞逝，实习生涯倒数的第二天。。。
心情有点矛盾，开心因为不再无聊了；难过因为不舍得！！矛盾啊！！！
这段时间里，学了很多也懂了很多，算是成长了吧？

他说：似乎长大了点，和我一起不会再有带小孩出门的感觉。 ＾＿＾

再算算日子，还有一个月我就是大三的学生了！
oh my god!!!真难以自信。。。我已大个女了。。。可感觉还是蒙蒙懂懂的。。。 不管了，也许傻人有傻福呢？
偶尔当当傻人也不错啊！！！

taiwan...wait for me!!!

yeah!!! finally confirm the taiwan trip n wil go there early of May before i back to kl for my study. so happy n excited!!! cozs can go wit my love... but not honeymoon cozs got 2 big big gooseberry... hehee.. one is his sis another one is my mum lo.. ;p

when i think backward, a bit regret cozs invite mum go together ma..coz cant be honeymoon wit my dear liao... but is good also, at least got someone help me pay the fees for the trip :)
clever le..hehee..cozs i got study accounting ma..of cozs wil b well in my calculating ^_^

wah.. think backward carefully, also have a long time no bring my mum go out for fun liao, since 2yrs ago last trip (also 1st trip for us la.. ^_^") to penang... she is a good partner for trip but jus bad in cant spent the money to buy things lo..coz she wil say wasted money!!!
oh my god, mum...i wan buy cute cute things la..dun stop me.. :P

taiwan.. a wonderland tat i miss so much... since form 4 already think of wanna go... now finally can go liao..
thanks my dear cozs invite me to taiwan.. :P

taiwan.. must wait for me o.... :)

my days...

oh my god, have four days to go then wil end my internship...
time is really passing fast le..

early mornin wake up from my bed... feel happy today czos ... (hehee..is secret)
last weekend spent all the times with the training report and sleep and eat, abit pelik ya..
finally after i try all the best the reports is com out.. but for sure not the perfect la..
y said like this le..czos my broken english!!!
hahaa... my fren even laugh at me.. y sound like chinese straight translate to english ah?
oh no,..this is the only thing i know ma..

so my lecturer..hope u can understand my english n dun failed me wor.. :P

yeah..today going to b a wonderful day again!!!

industrial training

wah... time is passing so fast...
already 4mths i have my training at usage tech. still have one more week to go..then will be the end of my training.
think back of the previous time.. a bit unbear to left usage eventhough sometimes i feel at here is boring and make me feel i'm useless cozs cant do anything.
i'm the person afraid to be lonely and bore. :)

unbearable to leave is not due to the tasks i did, is due to the working environment and the colleageus at here..
i think need to be thankful to utar because it let us have a chance to come out for gaining some experience on the actual workplace..
from this training, i know that the actual work industrial not just like what am i think before so simple and easy to deal with. sometimes it can be very complicated especially when then time you need to deal with one thing called HUMAN.

throughout the training, i know that interpersonal communication skill is very important..
no matter what happen, the communication is very important! if not we might misunderstand to each others.

hope next time when i come out to work, the working environment i meet will be same as now.
the colleageus are nice and friendly!!!

down...

suddenly feel the mood not so good...
not bcozs y... jus bcozs tat recently got few bad news..
heard my frens broke up... some broke up with their bf, some with their gf..

this let me feel tat love reli unpredictable same as life..
no matter how many effort u put in... many at this moment.. u love each other... but how about the next moment?
y everything must b so complicated?
y human being must b so complicated?

but no matter how, i trust tat ... if u treat each others well n appreciate each others...
when the moment u together with him/her... that's enough..
czos is hard for us to predict the next moment...
jus enjoy the life u have now...
y must always worry?

dun let urself live at yesterday,
dun let urself live at tomorrow,
jus let urself live at today!!!

sick..

recently the weather at here is not so good...
open up the newspaper wil read a lot of news regarding the "kebakaran"..

the hot temperature... make me fallen in sick...

mm.. suffer wit sore throat m coughin...
dunno can say sick is good or bad o...
cozs sick.. i suffer
but cozs sick.. i know tat someone reli care of me... heheee..

hahaa.... this sick o...
com in the right time???

too soft???

mm...today feel a little bit upset n disappointed...

the story started with,
long long ago...
i borrowed a fren money...
after sometimes i wish to get it back when i short of money.. but the fren always said tat she dun hav money... n she looks like pity..so i jus postpone n postpone it...

but today...
i jus found out tat, she said no money n act like very pity..
is use to cheatin me...
so sad...when u treat someone sincerely but at the end..she is cheating u..
how ur feel?
i'm sad not bcozs the money is bcozs bein cheated...

human is the most complicated animal in this world...
when the age becom older n older.. when we c more n more...
everythin wil bcom more complicated...
y we cant live simply/>???

i lost my way...

突然间朋友问起我在学校你和谁最要好？
一时间我居然答不上来。。。

有时会怀疑自己是否有着双重性格。。。
我是个爱玩爱闹的女生，可有些时候我却不爱说话，向静静的一个人。。。

在面对一些不太熟的朋友时我种是会为我的心加上一个保护网。
从何时起我不再选择轻易相信别人，不再为他人打开我的心房？
坦白说,我也越来越不了解自己了。。。
在一次又一次的被伤害后，再也乐观不起来了。。。

有时候我会想， 人为什么而活？ 最近的我， 迷失在谜懵的世界里了。。。